hm.

there's not a simpler way to put it
you had me at hello, now im hoping you don't go
its been a while since i've had butterflies
but your like a mail man you deliver them faster than you'll ever know
you have me feeling like a fool, slowly but surely falling for you
haven't even had physical contact and im already fantasizing
i forgot to mention that smile you have is quite mesmerizing
you make me laugh and you make me smile
i wouldn't mind having you around even for a little while
its so cliche but you make my heart race from miles away
thats talent, and your way with words thats something i like too
but i wont make this about all the things id do to you

the fear makes it a journey

the hearts a corridor, never ending
always wanting more
taking its time in surrendering
never knowing whats in store
theres a push and theres a pull
never ending are the lies
the hearts just a fool
sweet sounding lullaby's
a moment from the heart is never dull

what is fear without bravery
what is joy without spirit
what is love without loss
and what is pain without scars

they say not to be afraid
theres no way to avoid it
but how can i not be afraid
i've never walked home this way


the pitter patter of my hearts beating
the millions of thoughts that in my mind are fleeting
like a lioness the courage flows right through me
like a hare the fear injects into me
so dangerous yet so fulfilling

for mama shayy

alright this is for mama shayna<3
i miss you mamas! and especially cause mom doesnt buy cookies unless your here -__-
mostly cause i casnt sing on the spot
so trying to make a cover of anything was bad.
and yeah by the way whats my name is my song<3 ;)
xo


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where'd all the good times go

she thought they were in love, she thought he'd treat her right

and at the end of it all, what they did the most was curse each other

in the beginning it was sweet, and ironic but now it was always a fight

shed lie there on the cold hard mattress reminiscing, where'd all the good times go

couldn't remember the last time she had gone at least a week without crying

lately it'd always been like this she was never up high she was always down low

everyone said she was one in a million, if that was so then why'd she feel invisible

with a slight bit of exaggeration she felt like she was falling apart slowly and sleeplessly dying

shes home sick, in a place she doesn't know remembering once upon a time when she was invincible.

she used to be the girl that was always on top, yeah you could say she was the leader of the flock

always making people crack a smile, now she cant even force her lips to curve up into a grin

if she knew falling in love was going to end like this, she would've stayed in that wonderful place full of sin

thats the story of a girl, not just any girl i'll tell you that, that foolish girl thats giving up herself for someone else

i'd like to call her me, people would hear my name and it'd ring a thousand bells

i could make anyones knees weak, my persona so brilliant it was overwhelming

then you came in and dragged me to hell tell me why it had to be like this

loving you makes me hate myself, so different yet so alike

i dont want you to tell me you love me i want you to prove it

i can't be stuck in this never ending fight, as much as i pretend it is, it truly isn't right

and tonight i'll drop the fake smile and ill let myself be who i really am

i'm not quiet, i'm not innocent, i'm a train wreck, but i'll tell you baby thats the way i was meant to be

I was made for the struggle, made for the pain, i was made to handle anything that ever got in my way

hm. quick

caught in between, darkness and light

show me where to go, guide me in the right direction

these are my own battles to fight

but i cant help but to feel alone

even if ive got a full home

i dont even feel like im myself anymore

have a heart harder than a stone

when im trying to warm up

you make me so cold

got you right there but i feel so alone.

lovely

as silent as a ghost, you came into my life

you soon became as sweet as a cup of coffee in the morning

you made me feel so right even if they said it was wrong

i never knew much about love besides the heart break that came along right after

then you started saying the sweetest things that just about made me melt

the world kept telling me we'd end up another tragic love story disaster

but so far so good, you keep the same smile on my face that i had the first time we met

and the butterflies i can still feel them over and over again

your so much more than my sunshine on a cloudy day

so much more than the stars that light the sky

you so much more than a childs first word

the word special doesnt even describe you

i could try to use almost every word in the dictionary

and baby it still wouldnt be enough

because your more than anyone will ever know

you make me say things ive never said before

and you fill me up with emotions i can hardly explain

ever since you walked through that door

i knew youd be something special in my life

sometimes our love has a dreamlike quality

something that seems unreal

sometimes i have to pinch myself just to make sure im awake

i used to think it was to good to be true

but you proved me wrong, now i have everything ive ever wanted

and im keeping it that way until the sun turns blue

meaning its going to stay that way as long as i live

because you are the shooting star i wish upon every night

your what makes me know this love is true.

...........

once upon a time ago, i had a life full of reckless dreams

since then its been a while, and all those are just senseless things

i used to spend my night on a dance floor intoxicated to no end

i had the greatest of friends, the kind you never forget

but i had to grow up before i got left behind

theres things you start to realize in time

like how important it is to plan ahead

i had to change my state of mind

and do the things i used to dread

they say break the rules while your young

but why not build a base for you future

and save the fun

i cant say i dont miss the things i left behind

because they always hold a special place in my heart

but i had to learn to say no and how to beat time

i havent done much but i can say its a start